Whats Love Part II

What’s love got to do with it – part dos

Stressed about work, or health or bills

Everything that can bug you about your partner’s actions or reactions or NON action is blown out of proportion, because of your stress

What part of I DON”T KNOW don’t you understand?

Sometimes the MonSter takes away common sense and I do really stoopid things

BUT THIS DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!! =

Partner has had a horrible week at work and is still functioning, not bringing home the bad stuff, yet makes the comment he is going to buy out the rest of his time, and retire in 12 months instead of 24 months.

Purchase price of the health insurance will be MORE than he will have coming in from his retirement

STRESS
Kills

Blank out the consequences of not paying attention to the details

Like charge stuff because we couldn’t balance the check book, and we didn’t want an overdraft charge

BUT BACK TO THE IMPORTANT STUFF =

Proud that the renovation project is all labor and the price of the flooring and such is so little compared to the cost of building a NEW studio, as had been suggested by the Partner, who is in denial - but is making me my OWN SPACE compared to HIS OWN man space in the huge 2 story garage

To compensate for things better left unsaid?

After paying the insurance on the Jeep, personal loan payment, 2 credit cards and life insurance will need grocery money …

Tomorrow - move things around in the new space and tape off some areas that will be an accent color.

A trick of the eye where a shadow seems a bit deeper then it actually should, and that is where the FREE Glidden paint comes into play.

Need to price out my “loft” look for the fixtures, which would be the wall mount boxes and such and spot lights and track lights.


Tomorrow is now yesterday

Not a good start.

A phone message that the Pain Doc will not refill meds without an office visit.

A PARTIAL refill gets me only to next Monday, and the phone call gets an appointment next THURSDAY and the pills cost $3 each, and a partial is under the co-pay so am paying full price for not as many pills

Waiting for the return call from the nurse who will tell the doctor I need MORE of my RX and NO I will not drive in rush hour traffic for 50 miles thankyouverymuch, just give me more drugs.

The combination of this that and the other is working, why do I need to take off another day of work for another doctor appointment when we are doing it right??

Moving things around in my studio space and start to get back spazzies, well hell.

With the extra work put into weekends and physical excesses pushing myself during the remodel process can only judge this new “attack” is because went a day without all the medication “on board”

Holding the little bucket of joint compound in my hand - that was formerly known as the BAD HAND - caused pain after an hour, because went a day without all the medication “on board”

I needed to be proceeding with the project, but not having the energy to do the work I was supposed to do

The 94F heat and who cares what the humidity is because can’t breathe anyway - eats at my brain but get on the road to the H Depot to price out fixtures

Bought stuff on the list, and forgot stuff actually NEEDED

The man delivers 8 boxes of carpet tile for the new space and it is now crunch time

The partner sees that I have not proceeded at the rate that I have proved is possible over the past two weeks, and has to comment that he can not wait to see me TRY TO GET all this stuff into the new space.

Reminded him again I removed the stuff that was stored in 3 walk in closets and putting it in a space with NO closets.

Shelving and the renewed and improved storage in the MUD ROOM is my salvation, and haven’t even started going through all of the supplies that are stacked in the living room and dining room.

I have lost some of my clothes.

My laundry basket is missing.

At 5am painting the base coat on bare drywall and notice something is wrong with the speed roller. It has been bent to a specific angle to do the face boards on the gazebo – rendering it UN USABLE for a normal application.

Cripes again

Will need an email message to find out if there is another roller somewhere

If it isn’t one thing it is two things

And I need to shower and get ready for work.